In my last post, I talked about how I spent my two week blogging break, what’s inspiring me lately and my goal of getting into the habit of reading for at least 20 minutes a day. I shared how I have a tendency to be a perfectionist, have an all-or-nothing personality and take on a lot. I’ve been thinking long and hard about what I want to accomplish in my life. The thing is I do want to do a lot. I have so many ambitions and interests I want to explore sometimes I wish I would just have one passion I could really focus on. Maybe then my brain would be less cluttered. But that’s just not me.
I’ve come to the conclusion that if I want to do everything I want to do, I can’t do it all full speed. I came to the conclusion last year when I started blogging three times a week instead of five. And with a new business on the horizon, I’m coming to the same conclusion again. Which is why I’m now going to blog twice a week, Tuesdays and Thursdays. That’s not to say I’ll not post more on some weeks when I’m feeling extra inspired and maybe skip a week when the words just aren’t coming but my new intention is to deliver less posts with more substance and value.
When I first started blogging in 2008, I was addicted to the written word. I loved to read and I loved to write. I dreamed of being an English teacher (mainly because my favorite teacher in the world was my 6th grade English teacher and I wanted to be just like her) and I wanted to one day publish a book. I thought starting a blog would get me into the habit of regularly writing for an audience. Maybe people would even give me feedback on my writing in the comments! If you followed my blog from the beginning, you’ll know my first blog posts were very word-heavy. I wrote poems, musings about life and my thoughts on different quotes. I posted visual imagery, but the main focus was always the words. Shortly thereafter, I fell in love with photography. Fashion photography, specifically. I posted the work of other photographers who inspired me and then one day decided to photograph a pretty girl I went to school with, build a portfolio and present it to a modeling agency. The agency loved my work. I don’t want to sound conceited, but I do believe I have a natural eye for photography. For about three years, my focus shifted to dreaming up photo shoot concepts, photographing models and sharing them on this blog.
One of my very favorite photographs I’ve ever taken. (See the full series here.)
I chose to go to school for graphic design instead of photography (which I’m still in school for) because I think it’s a very broad major that encompasses many aspects of visual art and doesn’t lock me into one specialized field.
My latest graphic design project. (View in full here.)
And now, a few months short of age 22, I find myself becoming more and more introspective yet again. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older that I’m thinking on a deeper level. Maybe it’s the fact my family has had—and still is having—many financial struggles over the past few years I’m becoming more aware of the balancing act involved in making a passion profitable without sacrificing sanity. Or maybe it’s because my aunt is becoming a life coach I’m more conscious of living life with intention and purpose. Reading more memoirs and listening to podcasts and the fact my nutritionist is into Chinese medicine definitely contributes too. You see, when I am introspective, I gravitate towards words. It’s therapeutic, especially when there are four million things going on in my mind all at once. It’s satisfying seeing my thoughts written down—I don’t have to work so hard at remembering it all in my head.
What does that mean for this blog? Although this blog has always been a diary of sorts, I feel a shift in it becoming more personal and thoughtful. Longer posts. More writing. Less frequent, but with more intention. Sort of like when I first started blogging. Not all posts will be full of deep level meaning—I still love being fun and whimsical and quirky, so let’s marry the two! I posted a little poll over on Instagram last week asking you what you want to see more of in 2016. I was really happy to see you said outfits and wellness posts because that’s exactly what I had in mind. There will still be outfit posts, but I’ll also be sharing a lot of wellness tips, natural beauty DIYs (to tie in Drifter Organics), hair tutorials, recipes and of course my musings. I may post the occasional craft or home decor DIY, but only when I’m in the mood. I’m not one of those people that DIYs everything they own, but who knows, maybe I will be in the future.
My goal is to make this blog more organic and less contrived. I’ve never filtered my words to make them more palatable, but I’m giving myself permission to break a few blogging rules. I’m deviating from a Monday–Friday posting schedule and a strict editorial calendar. This blog is an integral part of my life but I don’t want to feel tied down to it, forcing words to flow out of my head while I hack away at the keyboard simply because it’s Wednesday and I need to write a blog post for the next day. If I want this blog to serve me, I have to be mindful of keeping it in its place.
The next few months are full of excitement and fear—which I’ve come to realize, are essentially the same thing. My mom and I are launching Drifter Organics’ Kickstarter campaign and I have no idea what kind of reception it will receive. That’s scary. But if something doesn’t scare you, it isn’t worth doing. Judging by how scared and anxious I am about launching my first product-based business, this new venture is worth doing. That’s what I keep telling myself at least.
I have one more goal (unrelated to the blog) I’d like to accomplish this year which I’ll talk about next week. What are your goals for 2016? Do you not set goals? Did you accomplish anything you’re proud of in 2015?