An old picture that has nothing to do with this post but I needed to have something up there.
(Please note this is a pretty long personal post. If you just like reading the outfit + lifestyle posts and looking at pretty pictures, feel free to skip this and scroll through. No hard feelings—promise.)
This post was supposed to be an outfit post, but I ended up not taking any pictures last week because of my hands. For the past few weeks, I’ve been dealing with bad hand eczema. I’ve had eczema all my life. Those of you who’ve been reading this blog for a while know I have a ton of autoimmune issues. If you’re not familiar with my issues, go here. My digestion, energy, and concentration have all been good. I eat as clean as one can possibly eat (solely the fruits and veggies from the farmers market I didn’t test positive for in my last allergy test).
My eczema reared its ugly head the first week of May and started healing mid-May. But last week, it came back with a vengeance. Last week was really tough. I threw out my neck last week too, which has since healed! My hands are so dry and swollen no matter how much I moisturize. They’re red, enflamed, cracking, bleeding, and the skin is pulled so taut it hurts to bend my fingers. The burning, throbbing sensations keep me up at night. I wake up every few hours to put on more moisturizer (I’m using plain ol’ shea butter). Touching anything hurts. You don’t realize how much you use your hands until you can’t use them! I can’t do everyday activities like drive, cut up fruit, do yoga, or walk my dog. It’s a good thing most of my work is done on the computer because I can’t do much other than type now.
The itchy, on fire feeling of the skin is something I’m well familiar with. As a child, I took a lot of prescription topical ointments and they usually cleared the eczema right up. The thing is the ointments were full of nasty chemicals. Now that I am more educated about natural health and wellness I am determined not to go that route. I know eczema is a sign of inflammation/overheating and I’m doing everything I can to cool down my skin. I’m trying everything in the book: soaking my hands in rose water, not using any soap, eating more cooling foods, applying cucumber slices to the irritations, applying plant-based oils and butters mixed with peppermint essential oil, upping my probiotics intake, and applying aloe vera. I regularly see an acupuncturist to treat my digestive issues, but for the past few weeks, we’ve been focusing on healing my hands since the digestion is doing well. It’s scary though, not having a pill to take or ointment to apply that will magically get rid of my issues overnight. In the long run, I know the natural route is more beneficial at getting to the ROOT of the problem rather than treating the symptoms. I just don’t know how much worse my eczema is going to get until it gets better.
Starting next month, my nutritionist will no longer be on my family and my insurance list. Since my acupuncturist is partners with my nutritionist, that means I probably won’t be able to see her for acupuncture anymore. While this stinks, I’m using this as an opportunity to see a new doctor. I’ve scheduled an appointment with a gastroenterologist recommended by a friend with similar sensitive tummy issues. I’m very curious to hear what his thoughts are on why my body constantly seems to attack itself. I don’t know how I can have so much energy, concentration, no digestive issues, and just feel so GOOD at the moment and yet STILL my body revolts. At first I thought it was stress-related, but my hands were fine during the Kickstarter campaign in April and school finals in May. School ended last week, the weather has been beautiful, and my favorite season is upon us! I don’t know what it is. What I DO know is I am determined to crack the code and figure out a natural remedy. I know there is something out there that can heal me—it’s just a matter of finding it.